for whatever reason, i’ll say that in the past few days I have gone hard and banged on the blogging over here in my little internet space. my moods are unpredictable, but I was in the mood to write, and so I wrote.
i’ve been getting a lot of encouragement from readers, and surprised by who they are at times. this post is my little thank you and victory lap.
I’m always humbled by finding out anyone reads this stuff because what I share here is so personal, I used to be concerned with the Judgment of others especially some of my Social Circle who have come to me and said they read the blog. I don’t always look great in the stories, but it is what it is. I think these people are still going to want to be my friend even though I’m such a fuck up in my stories. I just want to be understood, doesn’t everybody?a
i’m not proud of being addicted to huffing air duster while living on the street in the cold cold days of february. I am proud that I survived that shit, and here I am to tell the tale. I don’t go aroud bragging but I think I have a bit of true grit that enabled me to survive some very dire situations.
here I am persistently online, I often feel like more of my life is in the digital world of the little rectangle that I obsessively stare at for damn near 8 hours a day. it’s because i’m all the way over here, and you are all the way over there. it’s very possible that I miss you dearly, and am longing to connect. this is why you get random texts about random things at random times, i’m reaching out for your hand to keep me from going insane. I grew up online, I believe since 1996, as I was fortunate to have a computer in our family home.
“i’m a 21st century digital boy, I don’t know how to live but I got a lot of toys”
- Bad Religion
that’s me, the 21st century digital boy.
honestly, i’m just happy anyone reads my work, and the fact that they like it is just a surprise bonus. everyone always tells me not to stop, which is interesting because I don’t think i’d be capable of stopping now, I love this.
I love this, and I love you, so thank you so much.
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