9 Days In Bed/ War (What is it Good For?)/ Kate
Ok, so this is 3 things in one post, because the typing was typing, and I let it
9 Days In Bed
I was seriously in bed for 9 days due to this Zyprexa snafu. I am happy to report that I am coming out of it, despite thinking that I had come out of it multiple times. That’s it, man — I’m out of it. I got out of bed and walked around. I’m not laying in bed anymore, even though I am laying in bed typing this. That’s it. I’m not writing any more posts about this; it’s over, and I am done with it. I am going to be a human with a personality… tomorrow. Today is a wash, but tomorrow, oh, I am going to be a human with a personality who makes people chuckle.
Tonight, I think I will play video games past ten o’clock and catch up on all the text messages I missed while I was in a zombie death brain state People must have known I was “dead” by my lack of Instagram stories. Usually, that means I’ve disappeared back to the streets huffing air duster, butnot this time. Here I am, still in treatment, still waiting on supportive housing, still typing little things about little things.
War
I wonder when a big story will come to me, it’s been a while. I can’t just sit down and do it whenever I want. hmm…
You know what, while I’m typing, why don’t I get at something I’ve been thinking about: war. War, what is it good for? Absolutely nothing (say it again now).
What’s with the countless billions for furthering the military-industrial complex when there are people here who don’t have homes and are food insecure?
I didn’t want to get too into the Israel thing, but it looks to me like we are funding the slaughter of Palestinian children, right? I can’t claim to understand all the intricacies of the age-old struggle in the Middle East, but it does kind of look genocidal. Siphon people into a small area and carpet bomb them. I’m not a historian, and there aren’t gas chambers, but there are ghettos that are being burned.
Wasn’t Biden supposed to forgive student debt? Well, that never happened, and we just sent Israel 14 billion dollars for an ethnic cleansing week. That’s the thing about Democrats; they’re almost worse for pretending they aren’t fascists and then doing fascist things once you put them in the position where they can. At least the MAGAs are upfront about it. I’m never going to vote again unless it’s swiping right on AOC on Tinder. That’s as far as I’m going. I’m voting swipe right on her. I hope she grows up into a communist like any sensible millennial onlooker. I used to be a Democrat too. I get memories of my Facebook posts with Obama, Jay-Z, and Bruce Springsteen. So much hope, too bad Obama is a war criminal too.
Kate
I wanted to acknowledge the donations of Kate the most dedicated of all of my modest blog fanbase who contributed hundreds of dollars this week, without warning. I have never met her in real life, but she checks on me, and makes sure i’m ok, even when i don’t think i am very ok. She’s proud of me even when my trajectory takes it’s little non linear detours into maladaptive behavior.
It was her that told me she found the voice of someone close that she had lost in my writing, and that’s what drew her to what i was doing over here on this side of the internet. I hope that she continues to get something from what I’m writing, when she needs it. That is, to this day, 2 years later the kindest compliment i have ever received for my work, and there is literally no way a writer could set out to do that for anyone, it’s just beautiful. It still moves me to tears to think about it.
I will not be posting my coffee link, because I only do that when i need to, and in the words of David Byrne “I’ve got money now”. It’s definitely less money than you have, but let me feel wealthy with my little pay pal card, my chicken gyros, sodas, candy and vapes.
