Back in NYC, February 2022 I’d often find myself wandering around the city in the middle of the night when all the stores were closed. One night I found myself in Harlem at 3am. I started asking the crack dealers and crack smokers where I could sell my food stamps…

Composition book part seven I have felt the general Ok-ness outside of drugs, it’s so much better and more meaningful. One day in 2015 I was driving around in the rocky mountains outside of Boulder, CO. I was with my oldest friend and we were listening to a live My…

Chemical contentment continued: A good opiate nod is a longer lasting version of chemical contentment than the sweet spot of inhalants but it comes with so much hassle, and requires money every day . I’ve never really gone too deep into a screaming heroin habit but I did abuse the…

I went through a phase in 9th grade where I would take LSD and listen to Pink Floyd in the dark, so cliche. It was only “Dark Side Of The Moon" and “The Wall", just the mainstream billboard charting records that everyone knew. …

This should be a strong indicator of how fucked up I am: I love Propofol. Yes I’m talking about general anesthesia, like for surgery. It’s so cool, like time travel. Bam! You wake up in the future. It’s like the suspended animation in the movie “Alien". Absolutely incredible! I know it’s…