I actually took the day off from writing on this blog yesterday, which was rare for me. I usually try to get something out everyday. I didn’t have anything to say, and I had a couple of really low energy days back to back. I always wake up around 7 am, but I could really only make it to around 10:30 before I would require a little nap. it was so annoying, I want to be able to just pull a whole day without naps like I used to. It’s probably chemical, as i’m still trying to get access to my prescription medication before my the next available appointment I could get with a psych provider on may 2nd. I went on a whole half day trip trying to pull that off on Thursday only to find out it wouldn’t result in my getting my meds, anyway.
I’m going to tackle it this coming week, it’s going to be a busy one, because I've got to pack up and move to my new apartment. I have a therapist setting up telehealth appointments this week, i’m going to bring the issue to them because I believe their agency has a provider that can prescribe me my meds.
I may be low energy, but i’m not feeling any kind of unmanageable way, be it depressed or manic. A number of things have happened since i was in that dark place in the winter, and this one I think has been has helpful as any of them.
I’ve made a couple of friends.
I was looking online for a way to keep singing songs, like I was when I was in treatment and I met this guy who plays a pretty strong acoustic guitar, and knows a whole lot of grateful dead songs, perfect. It’s hard to find time but we are working on a little act. I want to take it to Manhattan and busk on the street since it’s going to be summer soon.
Cliff (the guitar player) introduced me to his friend Roy who is getting his masters degree in music production, and has all of this cool equipment at his house like MPCs and MIDI keyboards plugged into a serious computer running Abelton (the pro level music creation software). I just kick it over there, and mess around with all of the sound making buttons and dials.
It’s over on long island so I've become familiar with the LIRR.
It’s just nice to have people in New York that aren’t just shady drug people, that are creative people and look out for each other, and look out for me. Of course, I have all of my people that I haven’t seen in years that I still talk to every day but to have a real social circle (outside of my phone) , i think it was a big peice missing from my life. I think isolation was the main thing that took me apart back in January and February and led me into that whole disaster, which I feel like I’ve rolled out of in way better state.
I better have my oatmeal and another pot of coffee, I've got some errands to run and it looks like a really nice day to be outside.
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