I was not feeling yesterday afternoon, not feeling it one little bit. I knew I had a Psychiatrist appointment at 2, and it took 20 minutes to get there by the Q41 bus, so naturally I left an hour prior to go time. I really wanted to stay home and make music all day, actually
Well, the bus was so full that I had to be jammed in the front doorway, pretty much with my face pressed up against the glass so I could have a nice anxiety attack which caused me to get off early enough to catch the sky open up and pour torrentially on me as I tried to navigate the open dirt pit that is the construction zone on the Van Wyck expressway crossing leading to where my little clinic is. I couldn't make it I had to post up under the awning of the hospital until the rain slowed. I was flabbergasted by how much water was coming out of the sky. so, soaking wet anxiety attack in an urban mud pit, check.
I made a few calls, first to the doctors office to let them know i’d be late.
Then I called my oldest friend Patrick, whom I hadn't spoken to in God knows how long…I couldn't hear him that well over the downpour , but it was nice to hear what I could.
Then I called my Mom, and sister…for the first time in a about a month.
I don't know why I was estranged from them, but I figured it was time to end it.
The rain didn’t stop but it slowed down so I proceeded to the family clinic to go tell my psychiatrist that zero of these like 6 pills I take everyday are helping. So, I was frustrated, anxious and soaking wet when I arrived to the scene of 2 waiting rooms, watching the Benjamin Netenyahu talk to the US Senate about how he hasn’t killed over 150 thousand innocent civilians in Palestine, and how everyone protesting this genocide is likely an Iranian or Terrorist operative. He also basically said he needed to civilize the unwashed masses of the middle east, which reminds me of the manifest destiny of western US expansion that fueled the genocide of the natives of north america, just deplorably racist white supremacist rhetoric. Even more disgusting was the countless standing ovations from the chamber to his poison. I couldn't stomach this sight, it was one of the more upsetting things I've ever seen out of this country and it’s elected officials (which says a whole lot). What have we, as a nation come to? Oh wait… We’re just a people that we’ve always been, no more, no less.
Plus the air conditioner in there was on full blast and I was soaked with rainwater to the bone, freezing.
I said fuck it, rescheduled the appointment, its not like the psychiatry is making a bit of difference, anyway. I’ll go next week.
I want to give you my verdict on Kamela Harris: Fuck Kamela Harris.
“I condemn any individuals associating with the brutal terrorist organization Hamas, which has vowed to annihilate the State of Israel and kill Jews. Pro-Hamas graffiti and rhetoric is abhorrent and we must not tolerate it in our nation,” the vice president said in the statement issued by her office. “I condemn the burning of the American flag. That flag is a symbol of our highest ideals as a nation and represents the promise of America. It should never be desecrated in that way.”
History shows that anti war protesters are the ones who are usually proven to be right, look at Vietnam, look at Iraq 2003… You should 100% burn the flag if your nation is complicit in mass murder, and there has literally never been a time when we were not, somewhere in the world.
Plus, as if she, a woman of color would ever be vice president if some protesting people hadn’t burned some flags during the civil rights movement… just absolutely tone deaf and devoid of historical context.
Idiot.
