My brain is rubbish. I’ve been running out of energy by like 11 AM every day, and I’m stuck in bed scrolling Instagram, I feel like I can’t do anything.
I’ve been seeing this concept of “brain rot” being thrown around in the places that rot my brain (funny enough). I wanted to find out what this was so I asked my favorite chatbot “Pi”.
Brain rot is a colloquial term used to describe a feeling of mental deterioration or decline, often due to a lack of stimulation, engagement, or purpose. While it’s not a medically recognized condition, many people use the term to describe a range of symptoms, including:
Difficulty concentrating or focusing on tasks.
Lack of motivation or drive.
Feelings of lethargy or low energy.
Loss of interest in hobbies or activities that used to bring joy.
Difficulty retaining information or recalling memories.
Brain rot is often associated with activities that are perceived as mindless or unproductive, such as watching too much TV, scrolling endlessly on social media, or engaging in repetitive tasks that don’t challenge the mind. However, it’s important to note that everyone’s brain is different, and what causes brain rot for one person may not have the same effect on someone else.
- Pi
Yeah, everything checks out. Look at that, a name for my condition! What am I going to do? Fuck, man, I hate it when I have to actually do something to change my habits, because I settle in them so deeply.
I am taking steps to break habits that aren’t beneficial to me, I actually got a sponsor in AA yesterday instead of just showing up at these 12 step meetings without considering the actual 12 steps. It’s been nice to make friends and drink coffee, but I don’t think that’s going to sustain recovery from a hopeless state of active drug addiction and alcoholism (that i’d prefer not to return to).
The first weeks or so of my return to the program and putting down the substances (again) gave me this magical feeling of energy and joy. That has faded, though. Now, i’m creating issues to worry about, like the fact that I can’t write any more and that my brain is getting some kind of creative atrophy from lack of use. So, this is why i’m typing away this morning.
I’ve never really had any muscles to speak of, as far as being physically fit, but I gather that those things need exercise (from what I hear). So, here I am trying to prevent brain rot.
Can I let go of Instagram (the main culprit in my obscene amount screen time)? hmm… I don’t know about that, quite yet, but I am going to charge my phone on the other side of the room at night I think, that's a start.
Something is happening on Saturday, that will be very nice. None other than Heady Mike (of New Jersey), is coming to visit me here on 127th st in Queens. He’s going to see one of the techno jam bands on Friday, in Brooklyand will be here in NYC. I can’t wait to show him around, I haven’t seen him since 2021.
There are people in the 12 step recovery community that cut ties with the folks that go back to using drugs and/or alcohol. Mike is not one of those people, because I believe that he understands the point of what these 12 step programs are about, to help the addict/alcoholic that still suffers. I believe that mike (and others) always being on the other side of a phone call has as much to do with my return to the rooms as any other factor.
I was going to talk some shit about the people that don’t throw lines out to the sick and suffering people out there, but they’re irrelevant. Pointing out the bad examples of AA kept me out of it for a good decade or so, which wasn’t good, so… I think i’ll have a nice walk through the neighborhood, try not to rot.
