Yes, it’s Christmas. I’m alone in my new apartment, trying to decide what to do with myself today. It doesn’t really help that I’ve stopped taking Adderall, so my brain isn’t really working well.
I was looking at AA meetings, but they’re all like 7 miles away. I went out yesterday just to get out, but I got all anxious and had to turn around and come back home. At least I got some of the best dumplings I’ve ever had on my way back.
I’m actually looking forward to returning to the program I just finished tomorrow for my outpatient intake. It will give me somewhere to go and be around people. For now, I feel pretty lost and listless. Even writing this is difficult.
I never thought that I’d miss being in rehab, but right now, I actually do
