Content For Effortless Dopamine Production

Everybody has a thousand billion megapixel HDR cameras in their pocket, and everyone can take great photos and filter them in sepia to make them look artsy and fartsy. It’s effortless. It’s an effortless pursuit of the social media validation that releases dopamine in the reward center of the brain. Anyone can get boots to look taller, shades to look cooler, and push-up bras to make their tits look better. Do I do this? Fuck yes I do because I never quite learned to validate myself from the inside.

This is why ill take 1 medium follower over 50 Instagram followers. Writing takes effort, practice and focus. It takes a willingness to be vulnerable in a public space, and the outcome means more than any false artsy selfie in glamourous shades. I could crank out really cool photos in under 10 minutes and it means nothing. When someone tells me they connect with some of the things I'm getting at in my writing, its infinitely better than any likes and follows on social media. I actually started tweeting, for the little micro ideas that wouldn't fill up a 3–4 minute medium article. It’s a little much to be trying to cultivate an audience on so many platforms at once, and maybe I stretch myself a little thin. When I wake up in the morning, and coffee myself out of my Seroquel hangover, I shit content all over the internet anywhere I can put it. I feel confident in my creative abilities, and I really couldn’t cut it out even if I wanted to.

Stop me if this is pretentious as hell but I look at the whole social media thing as a kind of performance art that serves as a companion to my writing. I’m dying to be heard, seen and understood which may be somewhat pathological, I don't know. I like how easy it is to make these little movies, music or stories. I think I should sit on the work a little longer to let it mature, maybe that could be a goal.

I think about what I've been writing over the past few weeks and it’s pretty decent but I know that I'm capable of better work, I hope you don't know that, though. I think I rush things out just to feel productive. I read all of these “how to do medium” articles that suggest having content come out constantly to keep the audience engaged. I could put everything behind the Medium paywall to generate revenue, but I’d rather have eyes on my writing then whatever amount of money medium partnership could grant me. I have a little bit of money from the beautiful taxpayers of this great Empire State, so I don't really need to pull the whole “digital panhandling” move right now, so i can leave out the PayPal and Patreon links at the end of all the articles i publish. You’ll know I’ve gone broke when all of that PBS telethon shit reappears on my blog. I’ll try to keep it to a minimum.

Remember: This evR0ck only R0cks thanks to readers like you! No, I'm only kidding, it r0cks because it has to.

i will include my twitter handle: @evr0ck86