General Feeling of Okayness

If I am always writing about things going badly, I should stop and point out when they are pretty okay. I would like to acknowledge a general feeling of okayness. I slept way later than I usually do and woke up feeling very okay. I have come through various mental states that would have generally caused me to burn my life to the ground, and look at that, it’s still standing.

I remembered that a new Smashing Pumpkins record came out on Friday, and I hadn’t heard it yet, so I dove in and realized that music has returned to doing for me what it wasn’t doing when I was depressed. That’s always the indicator that my head is doing better.

I thought about it: sure, I don’t have everything I want, like a switch to play that new Zelda game that’s coming out next week, but I have everything I need. I’m not going to starve or have to sleep outside. I was able to pay my phone bill and my Spotify premium, so I can fall in love with Dinosaur Jr again like I do every time I listen to them. The weather is beautiful, so I took a little stroll with my headphones on, rocking out around the Lower East Side, and all was well.

Side note: The days of piss-poor grammar and spelling are over now that I can have ChatGPT edit my blog posts…growth.