I opened my computer because I was going to binge watch The Sopranos again, I still might. I’m sure there are plenty of great shows for me to binge watch that I have not yet seen, I don’t care.
I’m on some shit today. Not drugs, just some good happy shit. I ran around the other day to get some wires so that my roommate Robert could set up his PlayStation 4 in the living room. Not because i’m a good person or anything, I was just hoping he’d leave me the fuck alone if I did that ( i was incorrect). I forgot about the fact that in my years as a GameStop employee I got tons of PS4 games in my library, so I reset the password and logged it in the console.
I forgot about it for a couple of days, I usually stay in my room, doing things like writing, or doom scrolling Instagram.
Today I put my glasses on, took a seat in front of the TV to have a look at this PlayStation. I haven’t played video games in something like a year, which is odd considering it was my favorite hobby, you know, for my entire life.
I knocked around a bit of street fighter, since I own about 15 versions of it (they’re all different, trust me). Then, i started a new game in Grand Theft Auto 5. I’m sure that game got tons of critical acclaim, I think it deserves a lot more for being maybe the most scathing satire of modern american culture (10 years ago) that I've ever seen in any form of media.
I don’t care about PlayStation 5, or whatever new thing there is. My friend has all of that stuff, I was really jealous of her, now i’m just happy that I have what I have, it’s way more than I had even a week ago.
I don’t know what happened to me, I feel this way about most everything I have. It’s fucking weird, man. my attention was fixated on all of the things that I don’t have just days ago. It is in my best interest to try to prolong this kind of thinking for as long as I can, perhaps indefinitely if at all possible.
My belly is full, and I’m in my room banging away on a keyboard while I listen to Bob Dylan. Fucking amazing.
I’ve got a meeting tonight, maybe these folks will tell me how to prolong this kind of thinking, I suspect they are capable.
I mean, I’m still broke…i’m working on it though:
