This started as a blog about being a homeless drug addict at the end of the world (2020), but now it’s got a whole component about a person who’s trying to earn at least a little money by being able to write. I think you can create amazing work, but nowadays if you don’t promote it, what’s really the point? The point of my writing is still self expression over any kind of financial gain, but what if it could be both of those things. I dunno, man, having no money stresses me the fuck out.
4//1/24 5:30 AM
Happy Monday, it’s April already, my god man. I was up at five this morning, making my coffee and oatmeal. I like that, going to bed by 9 and waking up really early, it allows me the most time with my functioning brain, which usually farts out by noon. I am going to another food pantry at 11 so I didn’t want to lose my good writing hours while I was out doing that, like I did on Saturday. I really hope they give me some stuff i’ll actually want to eat, but you never know. I’m just going to keep showing up at these things with my old lady cart, I feel like i’m stockpiling for the apocalypse.
People are afraid to be open about struggling. Everything always has to look good on the outside for Instagram. When I started this blog, it was never going to be that, I wanted to present the whole experience. When things get better (and they will, they have to), i’ll have times like this to look back on and it’ll mean more. If I’m the protagonist of the bigger story told here (we are all our own main character), all of the struggle builds character, the reader wants to see the protagonist overcome the challenges they are faced with. It helps them relate.
This week, I need to hustle, I have 99 cents to my name. I’m on a couple freelance writing job boards looking for something I can manage doing that doesn’t mind my lack of freelance writing experience. I’ve pretty much spent the last week researching how I can turn my writing ability into something that will help me keep my belly full, but, having ADHD I’m moving in 300 directions at once, I need to find a good thing to focus on.
Plus, I really hate all of the begging I’ve had to do on my ko-fi page to try to survive and I think it falls on deaf ears, anyway. https://ko-fi.com/evr0ck17 , by the way, if you could.
The real hustle, though, the big project Isn’t writing what someone else wants me to write where they want me to write it, it’s writing what I want to write, like I do over here on medium. At the end of the day, getting this blog more traffic and readers is what i’m really passionate about. I just want to share some successes I’ve had with some of the ideas I worked on last week.
I answered a question about what it’s like to abuse inhalants on Quora.com, I just used one of my blog stories about my times being hooked on huffing air duster, and the response got 918 views, I included a link back here at the end in case people wanted more of that kind of writing. That’s gotta be helpful to the traffic over here, right?
Another idea was to have AI generate YouTube short commercials for this blog, and the one I made yesterday actually got 643 views since yesterday afternoon, that’s more than anything I’ve ever posted on YouTube. hopefully that will get more eyes over here. I was talking to my good friend at length yesterday about not giving up, and having a little faith in myself. We just agreed that you just need the right set of eyes to see the potential in work like this, and it could just change everything.
Since I Don’t have a job, and am unable to work due to a number of factors. Last week I decided that this was my job, and i’m going to be as committed to it this week as ever. What the fuck else can I do?
I also like to be up early in the morning because that’s when I have the most faith in myself, and am willing to take the risk of putting everything out there, until the afternoon when it’s cringe time. I’ve trained myself not to go delete all of the stuff I did, just because it feels a little embarrassing and that’s why there are 652 posts here.
While I do have a Ko-fi page for donations to the creation of this blog, and I don’t want it to be that i’m not doing anything for myself and just trying to get free money from people. That’s not what it is, see I woke up at 5 AM to get grinding on things to try to help my situation… I would still ask that if you think you could swing a contribution, please do because times are tough:
https://ko-fi.com/evr0ck17
And of course, the link of links that you can click on to follow me on social media, email me and all the other things I’ve made:
