List: Composition Book, (winter 2022) | Curated by Ev R0ck

Sep 16, 2022
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Composition Book, (winter 2022)The longest form episodic thing I’ve ever written in chronological order
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The Foxhole PrayerOn February 23rd 2022 was in the waiting room of a rehab in Harrison, NY, unsure if I was going to be accepted. Despite my agnosticism I…
Sep 15, 2022
Sep 15, 2022
I’m fuckin traumatized
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Regent Place (Brooklyn)Note: no names have been changed to protect the innocent.
Apr 15, 2022
Apr 15, 2022
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The stabbing, 1/5/22My roommate Antonio came into my room to talk about nothing of consequence, as he often did. I would always think about how little i wanted…
Mar 20, 2022
Mar 20, 2022
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Composition Book 2022 (introduction)⁰Introduction: I just fell really hard since August 2021 when I began using drugs again. I had been clean over a year when I manipulated an…
Apr 4, 2022
Apr 4, 2022
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Composition Book (part one)Sometime in mid January:
Apr 4, 2022
Apr 4, 2022
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Composition Book part twoIt’s hard to keep everything that happened in February straight. That’s one reason I decided to let it out on paper.
Apr 4, 2022
Apr 4, 2022
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Composition Book part threeMiraculously one of the emergency rooms was able to get me into rehab on Feb 23rd, even more miraculously I decided to go. I began to…
Apr 4, 2022
Apr 4, 2022
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Composition Book part fourI’m fucking trying here, man! Truly. Sincerely. I have to stay in touch with the possibility of death, but also the possibility of life…a…
Apr 5, 2022
Apr 5, 2022
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Togetherness With Humans (page 83)The party ended years ago, there isn’t a single shred of social drinking or drug use for me, anymore. It’s a lonely life, it isn’t really…
Sep 14, 2022
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Composition book page 73 (drugs, love, music, booze the early days)Man, I wrote this 130 page thing in the first rehab I started in prior to coming up here to the long term thing in the Catskills. I was…
Sep 14, 2022
Sep 14, 2022
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Composition Book part fiveI remember the little conversations in my head about what combinations of substances would make me feel content. That’s all I wanted was a…
Apr 6, 2022
Apr 6, 2022
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Composition Book part sixChemical contentment continued:
Apr 10, 2022
Apr 10, 2022
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Composition book part sevenI have felt the general Ok-ness outside of drugs, it’s so much better and more meaningful.
Apr 11, 2022
Apr 11, 2022
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Composition Book part eightBack in NYC, February 2022
Apr 11, 2022
Apr 11, 2022
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Late Stage Addiction and Circles (page 118, spring 2022)I think I’m in the late stages of a terminal illness, they say addiction guarantees only “jails, institutions and death”, I can check off…
Sep 13, 2022
Sep 13, 2022