My Things, Your things
It isn’t that i can’t write anymore, although i still cant be bothered by the capitol letters that should be in proper nouns, and the apostrophe required by contractions. i can still write.
it’s just that my mind moves very quickly, and i find the short form video clip is sufficent for that kind of thing, where i just verbalize my thoughts and post them on the places where they go.
things are good.
how are your things?
good, i hope.
there are still challenges, naturally. like being hungry, and all of that. but i must alway think of the words of a great man, whom i met some years ago…chessmaster mike. Mike’s hustle was to be like a pool shark, but with chess games, and this is how he funded his drug habit, and his living habit.
“If you go hungry in NYC it means that you’re lazy” — Chessmaster Mike
I was called lazy for many years by many people, i guess because they have their own definition of work. what i’m really moving into now, is my own definition of work, and the radical acceptence of not just self, but others.
it’s not linear, and one step forward can be followed by two steps back.
but when you know where you want to be, you know that you’ve got to have a little seat for some moments. i am learning this from being surrounded by guyanese and trinidadian people, many of them hindu…they understand rest.
american capitalism has no place for rest, no place for mental health…it’s all bullshit, lip service.
people i’ve known in the past may find the way i’m trying to move now, unsettling or crazy.
that’s ok, they don’t have to walk around in my body, or my mind. my challenge is not to resent anyone.
if any of it makes sense to anyone, at some other juncture… they can shoot me a wink. it makes sense to me, right now. of course i’ll have my scheduled self doubt crap factory of thought garbage at night, it’s getting shorter and it’s at least predictible.
i used to do what i do for the approval of others, and i wont lie to my readers and say that it isn’t nice to get a bit of approval. More often, though i do what i do because it’s so fun.
whether it be singing, playing instruments, making little films, writing, or vandalizing the city. whether it be facebook, youtube, instagram, tiktok, soundcloud…ect…
“I’m a 21st century digital boy, i don’t know how to live but i’ve got a lot of toys.”
- Bad Religion
seriously though, i start my job on the 15th, but for now i’m broke, broke. like worried about morning bagels broke: https://ko-fi.com/evr0ck17
if you want to see the things, the other things… well, i’ve sure got a link:
