I was slinking through my old poetry and i found something. the poem is terrible i wont be sharing that, but the first line is:
“I want to trust my voice”
I’m beginning to but trusting my voice is the whole hurdle to raising it. Once I’ve written something, it feels like I’m committing to it. I have trouble committing to anything, there are a few young ladies who can attest to that.
I read that Sun Ra once said the hardest thing for a musician to do is sound like themselves. I think that could be applied to writing, or any creative outlet.
I want to cultivate a tone, a way of saying something in a voice i can live in, walk around in, and be comfortable.
if i can be honest in here, be myself, then i don’t have to be anyone else anywhere else. If whole heatedly commit to who i am, and the facts as i see them, the process is transcendent. I can move confidently, and step more lightly.
I came to the realization that writing takes practice, and not everything has to stand on its own, some of it cant. Practice makes me more comfortable in how I express myself, and it makes the process easier. The side effect is that the writing gets better, and my voice comes through all the noise. That’s why i wrote 100 posts in the last few months, i’m practicing. This blog is the writing equivalent to a band opening the doors for soundcheck. If i was shooting for perfection i wouldn't have ever started.
I drink a lot of coffee, and smoke a lot of cigarettes:
