You may read this blog frequently, I hope so. If you do, you’ll know that I've been at a major energy deficit for the past week or so, and I've pretty much been sleeping the majority of each 24 hour day for at least the past 5 days. It frustrates me, and then I feel useless for not doing anything, which impacts my self-esteem, and that makes me depressed, and it goes in that circular motion down the mood toilet.
Well, I had a psychiatry appointment today, and I told the doctor what was going on, to which she said “well, it seems like you are over-medicated”, and she decreased pretty much everything I’m on.
OK, first of all: who do you think over medicated me? She said like that it was some mystery person, when it was in fact her who prescribed all of these drugs to me.
I weigh 120 pounds, I mean, it doesn’t take much to rock my whole scene. Ask anyone who’s ever drank alcohol with me (poor things).
This makes me kind of hopeful, though, to drop down this month, and plan on dropping down again next month. I really think that I don’t want to be on any of this shit anymore, and just accept myself for who I am, and where i’m at. I’ve bought into the whole “i need to be on medication” trip for almost 30 years now, and from the last 2 years of really fucked up results of the continual trial and error (see: Adderall, or any of the other insane things that made me insane or a zombie), I feel over it.
You can’t just go kick your psych meds cold turkey, though. I Know that. I know that I need a professional to supervise it, and i’m trying to do it right.
