I was having a rough week, adjusting to medication changes that had me not getting the sleep I need to function at my best level. I hate it when I'm not functioning at my best level.
Last night I had my first piano lesson, and it saved my whole week. My piano teacher played bass keys and I improvised and it sounded great, he said that I have talent and good rhythmic sense, and advised me to listen to Thelonious Monk. I’ve been making music almost my whole life, in one way or another, but I have no musical training…just really good software. So here I am finally getting at something I've wanted to do for about 20 years and it came fairly naturally. I’m so happy to have the opportunity to have a lesson scheduled every Friday at 6:15. Knowing that i have piano lessons coming up, makes me want to stay sober so i don’t fuck them up
I just want to learn enough to start writing songs, which is what I've always wanted to do. I’ve been trying to get help from musicians but they always flake, so i’ll be happy to do it myself.
I have written a few songs with the help of garageband for either mac or iPhone, so I'll link one of them…it’s just going to get better. I can already write decent poems that sound like songs in my head, I cant wait to make them sound like songs to everyone else.
Life is very good, I wouldn’t want to be anywhere but where I am, doing what I’m doing. all the hurt and traumatic events put me here, and I wouldn’t undo it all, because it has a purpose. I will hit the 90 day sober milestone on Monday if I keep playing my cards right. This 88 days is more meaningful than any attempt at sobriety I’ve been through in a long time, because now I can write and create other things, which is all I’ve ever wanted to do.
