Productivity is Weird 3/22/23

Ev R0ck
1 min readMar 22

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I feel so weird being productive and doing well, it makes me anxious and uncomfortable. I feel like someone else is doing all of these job interviews, job fairs and resume stuff. it’s been such a long time since I participated in the game of society, it feels totally foreign. Sometimes i feel out of my body watching it do all of these things.

what if all of my efforts actually come to some fruition and I become employed?

I have a few opportunities to be a canvasser for some progressive non profit organizations. it’s entirely possible that i could not only have a job, but a job that aligns with my beliefs and actually means something to me at the end of the day.

all of this progress feels like an accident. who is doing this? I’m always expecting the whole thing to come down on top of me.

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Ev R0ck