A funny thing happened today.
Its about 3:30 PM right now, and I've just woken up from a 2 hour nap. It’s the nap I have to take every day when all of my energy runs out, even though I've slept at least 8 hours overnight.
I don’t like this, it sucks, actually. I’m 38 years old, I should have more energy. I’m not functional, I can hardly do anything.
Well, I had an appointment (on the phone) with my psychiatrist and I told her about this lack of energy. Believe it or not, she suggested that I get off of the only psychiatric medication that i’m currently taking, which is 500mg of the mood stabilizer Depakote, nightly. This is very off brand for a psychiatrist, they usually want to add something.
So, i’m going to take half of the 500mg for a bit, and then…wow, nothing.
This is the new experiment in consciousness, people. I’m going to be “raw dogging” life. I’ve been 40 days without the cavalcade of street chemicals I was doing, and soon i’ll be free of the pharma-grade psychotropic chemicals. I can’t remember the last time I was fully without some kind of mind altering chemical on board, it’s likely I've been on something or other for well over half of my life.
I am so for this, because I’ve learned how to accept myself for who I am, and work within the various limitations I have. There have been so many times where the “cure” for my problems was just as bad as the problems I was trying to fix.
Lets just see how the experiment works out.
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