This blog has always been about the inside of mental health struggles, and I wanted to write about what’s going on before I reach my daily “lose my fucking shit” time.
I have been having regularly scheduled defcon 5, out of body anxiety attacks every day this week and it’s scaring the shit out of me. it feels like I'm going to die, I can’t remember anxiety this severe, like, ever in my life.
Everyone around me thinks I'm doing very well, but inside I am an absolute nut case. I wake up with this manic energy that feels really good, but by 1 pm I am a sweating, shaking, hypertensive mess, paralyzed by the physical manifestation of anxiety.
i don’t know what to do about it,i try to talk about it and ride it out. i was so bad yesterday, it’ll probably happen today.
