I’m going to just do that thing where I start typing and see where it takes me, it’s been a while. a lot is going on, and I want to be delicate with it.
I’ll start with my current obsession with a Rolling Stones song called “Shine a Light” from the legendarily masterpeice album that is “Exlile On Main Street”. ask anyone that knows anything, theyll tell you it’s one of the best rock records ever made.
from what I gather, it’s about knowing someone that’s a total mess, and wishing for some angelic grace to pull them through it. I’m going to include the lyrics. it’s been one of my absolute favorite tunes for as long as I can remember.
Yesterday I was about to cancel my weekly music lesson due to my being in a depressive state. the whole mood thing cycles, and it’s cycling down currently…it’ll cycle up. I’ve been sending my music teacher a song and the chords of the song every Friday and he learns it that day for me to belt out. I was listening to “Shine a Light” all day and wondering if my voice could swing it. Mariano the music teacher picked it right up, and I was able to sing it in a very raw, imperfect fashion. I can sing, the music man said so, so I trust his assertion. I’m telling you, I had to keep my eyes closed so that they didn’t leak all over the place. the first time I watched the video I broke out in tears, because I’m able to do something that I’ve always wanted to do, and it’s coming out ok. I think it especially works best when I really dont feel up to it, and it comes from that pit in my soul.
we got it in the first take and i already posted the video, so i’ll post the audio from the 2nd take, which might sound better, i dont know. I’m also going to include my youtube playlist of music, and my soundcloud playlist of covers. i know it’s often sloppy, but i dont care i fuckin love it.
Saw you stretched out in room ten o’nine
With a smile on your face and a tear right in your eye
Oh couldn’t see to get a line on you
My sweet honey loveBerber jewelry jangling down the street
Making bloodshot eyes at every woman that you meet
Could not seem to get a high on you
My-my sweet honey loveMay the good Lord shine a light on you
Make every song your favorite tune
May the good Lord shine a light on you
Warm like the evening sunWhen you’re drunk in the alley, baby with your clothes all torn
And your late night friends leave you in the cold gray dawn
Whoa, just seemed too many flies on you
I just can’t brush ’em offAngels beating all their wings in time
With smiles on their faces and a gleam right in their eyes
Whoa, thought I heard one sigh for you
Come on up now, come on up now, come on up nowMay the good Lord shine a light on you
Yeah, make every song you sing your favorite tune
May the good Lord shine a light on you, yeah
Warm like the evening sun
Now, now, now, yeahCome on up now, come on up now
Come on up now, come on up nowAh my Lord, make every song you sing your favorite tune
Ah yeah, (May the good Lord) yeah, yeah Lord, (shine a light on you)
My, my, my, my warm like the evening sun
Now, now, now, now, now, yeah
Yeah, yeah
This is 7 videos of music ive been making, in a little playlist:
I don’t know if i mentioned this but last week we did the song that i’ve been using to calm my stress since 2016, when managing a gamestop and a clingy significant other was driving me mental. hey, i actually wrote about the song already so i guess i’ll just link that .
Now I have to get at something else: this week we lost one of my family’s closest friends to leukemia, and I’m in no position to write about that yet, as I want to do her justice, and I need to process the loss for a little while before I get into all the stories and love from the past 28 years of knowing Maryellen Parker, her husband Randy, and their 3 wonderful children. I’ll probably get at it in a few days when I feel a little more put together, and I’m not randomly breaking out in tears all day.
i’m so fuckin sad.
