I was so depressed for months and just stuffing myself with drugs. I never laughed and even things I love were doing nothing for me. It was like there was some ceiling covering up the sun and I couldn’t get any light in.
I think it started cracking open yesterday, when I could actually hear music over the negative internal chatter and the fog of opiates.
Thank god man, I was so fucked up… I tried to fuckin kill myself for Christ sakes, that’s how powerful it was. Yes, my life is in the rubbish and I only have one pair of underwear but I don’t feel as bad about it.
I am fucking ecstatic about music again!
