It feels like I can’t do this, it feels like I can’t do anything. I think that I am fundamentally flawed in my construction and therefore not built to successfully live. I feel like garbage all the time, I don’t care about anything that would be important to care about. The things that tend to bring me pleasure and joy no longer have that effect. I don't know how long i can feel like this, being someone who gets sober, only to feel like dogshit on fire all the fucking time. It stops making sense. All the effort, for what? To feel like shit whenever I’m awake? i don't know.
i have a psychiatrist appointment at 3, i took notes. im hoping for something better.
