Man, I told you motherfucker’s I was gonna survive, or maybe you motherfuckers told me. I forget
I’m kidding, but it was a very strong day over here at the Hollis, Queens command center of Evr0ck Inc. Mostly, mostly a strong day.
Thursday, April 4th 2024
I got my ‘lil bi-weekly 100$ check, cashed it while I was all the way over in Woodhaven not getting my psychiatric medications (like I was told I would). Feeling like the day was a total loss, I came all the way back to the end of the J line, grabbed the q83 bus home, and promptly fell into a deep 2 hour sleep. I did not know if I would recover from this nap, my head was banging, so I did the only thing I could do: drank 3 cups of coffee.
So, I got my little old lady cart and went down to family dollar on Jamaica, ave and totally killed it. I spent about 23 dollars and not only do I have enough food to hold me until I move next week, but i’ve got a big tub of ice cream, and ample candies for little treats. There were other things I really needed, which I didn’t have: body wash and moisturizer, I had been walking around with very dry skin from using a 99 cent bar of ivory soap. No more!
I’m a pretty simple man, i’m glad to have some cherry cola, some sour power straws, some eggs to put in my ramen and a few cans of nice soup.
I wasn’t satisfied, though… I thought I could pull off a little more, so I went down to the worst laundromat I’ve ever seen (my neighborhood has the worst businesses, you should see what they call a bodega over here). Not only did I do my laundry, I quickly folded it and put it away when I got home. Imagine that.
All of this stuff may not seem like much to your average functional adult, but to me the day felt like a major victory and I enjoyed the whole process of doing things that I need to do to get by.
I guess it doesn’t matter what your average functional adult can or can not do, it only matters that I’m living in a better way than I was, and I believe that i’ll probably make it, especially when just a few days ago I wasn’t necessarily sure. I’m not in any kind of race with you, or anyone else, the only competition that matters is right now me vs. past me. Right now me is winning, and it makes me very happy.
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