I really lack focus. I have all of these unfinished drafts of stories that I want to do some justice, but once I get at them I lose my whole shit. I am simply typing because I like typing… I am listening to the first Chemical Brothers (“Exit Planet Dust” ) record and trying to type within the beat. It’s enjoyable.
I have this new idea, are you ready? I have to continue to write everyday, but it doesn't mean I have to publish everyday. For the last year or so, I equated the practice of writing with actually publishing stuff. I have come to realize that isn’t the best way of going about this because things get rushed out just so that I can seem productive. It’s a whole new fucking plan, man.
Yesterday morning, I started getting at my pre and early teen affinity for Marilyn Manson (being that it was Halloween, I wanted to be spooky), yesterday but had to stop to go ride rollercoasters at Six Flags Great Adventure (aww, poor me) . It was a pretty decent story, but now it isn’t Halloween, so It’ll probably just rust and gather dust in the draft graveyard…get it? Halloween… spooky… graveyard, anyway.
Since we were at the theme park until around 11:30 I didn’t get to sleep until at least 1:30 last night, so I’m exhausted, which really blows my chance of publishing anything today, this little typing exercise aside. I’m such a creature of habit and routine, if i don't get to bed by 10, It really fucks me up. I don’t know how people get by on anything under 8 hours of sleep, that limits my potential functionality the next day.
Its just some basic life curriculum shit that i basically ignored until i was around 30: GET SLEEP MAN! It isn’t advanced science or far fetched wizardry, it’s fuckin sleep, get it.
If you’ve read this far i want to A) thank you for reading this placeholder of a blog post, and B) apologize for blogging about absolutely nothing. It has been my distinct pleasure to type this, and remember, children: they can’t all be winners…as long as some of them are. If i stop rushing out stories the winningest ones will win better, right?
