Fuck Fuckin Fuck Fuckin Motherfuck!
What the fuck, man? I have no fucking energy any time after lunch, no matter how much coffee i drink. I think i have some kind of depression or vitamin deficiency or something. I feel like i got shot by an elephant tranquilizer dart, i cant get up.
I don’t even enjoy music, video games, dog videos or anything else that i normally enjoy. What is this shit? the winter? the holidays? an upcoming birthday?
i fucking hate this shit. I feel like shit.
I sleep at least 7 hours every night, why am I so tired? I fucking hate this shit, I wish I was able to do things, you know…productive things. I’m so good in the morning, so good…and then everything farts out. I don’t know if I am properly managing the symptoms of my mental illness, someone who is only 6 days away from age 37 should be able to make it through a full day, it’s not like I’m fuckin 78.
The funny thing is that my psychiatrist just increased my Seroquel by 200 mg again…which means i’m likely to have less energy than the zero i have now. How am I supposed to live? If you don’t hear from me it’s because i’m in a coma, I guess.
Man, i got no energy, no cats, no dogs, no women, no money, no candy. fucking fuck, I’m in a bad way, man. fuck!
I have some nice coffee and candy coming from amazon fresh tomorrow, at least. i can look forward to that.
“Say a word for Evan P, he aint got nothin at all…”
- Lou Reed (sort of)
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